Wednesday, August 31, 2005
everytink is gettin back 2 per normalbut stil alot of tinks r happening
sku work is stil a problem
frenships within close frens r gettin worse
hmmm...2day its quite alrite
mrs teo spend half hour telling us abt stuff tat ms low likes
n abt de rejecting of presents
tank fully mrs ho was in a happy mood
n i was so suay coz i didn't bring my maths book
afta sku i went parkway wif sheryl n ju den later came charm
den later walk walk walk around den later juliana need 2 go hm
den me charm n sheryl went to kcp to give mdm shida present
charmain went back hm
den later give liaos sheryl go hm i went pp back
den went mcds to meet him
den wow so many uncivilised pple dare spittin n smoking
haha den later go hm at 5.45 +
end of story =]
i feel like skippin sku 2moro hopefully can lahs..
mayb everytink sld b kept in de heart n not to be told
i dunno wats happening around me..i dunno whether its me or wat
i felt tat everybod is covering my eyes
not lettin me noe wat happen
i feel shut up in my own world n like oni im wif myself
its like even though i used to be so stress last time i always had smbod
no longer..i cld felt it the pple tat i told was gone
1st was her now its anada 1..tis 1 i felt like the beginning of d yr
eva since she say tat she wil neva 4give her she did
i ask her out she say she had exam n when oda pple ask her she agree
mayb it was on a weekday tats y but i dun get it lah
now de worse 1 im feelin tis really caused me 2 even break my own promise
i cried n i cut myself partly oso bcoz of her
i dunno wat now oni see her during recess n oda den tat in de foyer
we no longer like go out on weekends 2gether n afta sku 2
she meet her n when i ask her she juz say she was goin out wif her
she no longer like ask me go along mayb i was sensitive
but i felt it so badly even tat time i went her hse
mayb i was feelin out so i said tis but it really happened alot of times
i tried to tink it de nicer way but i carn take it..
even when i was goin out wif her when she came along she wld follow her
i felt it was like a sort of make use when she is wif her she wil like leave me..
i hint her one them but it stils happen n i told smbod oready
juz prayin tat she wun tel...mayb bcoz last time they were very gd frens
i pray tat tis period wld b ova..i feel like killing myself
i carn cut..i carn tel anybod..i bring myself 2 sleep
but when i close my eyes i begin 2 cry
i told myself tat if i prayed everytink wil b alrite
in de end nth helped..i wrote a letter to her early then her
she rather reply 2 her first instead..i take it as she 4got
but in fact deep inside my heart teared..
i put on a nice face when i faced all three but inside i felt it again
tat time she called me she said she wil cal back in de end neva
when i called anada her she was tokin 2 her ...
i oso gave myself a console i tink tat she 4got but it sort of happen quite often
mayb i sld stop all these tinkin but i carn help it..
u seriously haf to felt it urself..mayb nobod eva had tis kind of tink
even now i feel tat i carn tel everytink to anybod includin him
mayb de oni way out was to take myself away from earth
tats y de best tink is tat when u die everytink wil b 4gotten
well i tink if i continue hueva readin wil stare n HUH!! loudly..
ACCEPTANCE 12:59 PM
